November 12

Five years ago, November 12 was just another day to me. The most exciting thing about the day was that it was the day before my cousin’s birthday and another day closer to Thanksgiving.

Four years ago, November 12 became so much more special. It’s the day I met my Bonus Kids for the first time. I knew then that I loved them and was excited to one day be their Bonus Mom. I had no idea how much that love would deepen and grow. My life changed that day in some big ways. I saw my boyfriend light up in ways I’d never seen before and show a tenderness that made my heart melt. He was a natural Daddy. For me, there was no going back.

Three years ago today, that boyfriend became my husband and I became Deedee to those beautiful babies. The day is stored in my mind in bits and pieces but anytime I think about it I remember that glowing feeling. I was so happy and nervous and ready. I had no idea where life was going to take me but I knew who’d be there by my side.

Two years ago we spent the day relaxing at home with our big kids running around and the twins kicking around in my belly. Our family was exploding and we were scared and excited. We had no idea how we were going to make it. I baked a pie and enjoyed the day.

This year he surprised me with gifts and a beautiful card. We ate spaghetti and meatballs while our youngest screamed at us and climbed on everything. We planned our weekend date. I grocery shopped online and planned our meals.

Five years ago I thought my life today would be so different. I wasn’t stupid, just so so shortsighted and unimaginative. Four years ago I had a sneak peak at what I was in for. Three years ago my partner and I made it official and took a huge step on our journey. Two years ago we prepared for expansion. This year we took a deep breath, looked around, and snuggled deep into the love.