When I’m A Bad Mom

The times when I am a bad Mom,

Are the times when I act exactly the way I tell my children not to.

When I am impatient,

I tell them to hurry up when really, there is no reason to rush.

When I lose my temper,

I yell out of frustration.

When I say ugly things,

I forget that they are only children.

The times when I am a bad Mom,

Are not just the times when I act this way towards my children,

But also when I act this way toward myself.

When I am impatient,

I tell myself to stop being an idiot and figure out a way to be super Mom.

When I lose my temper,

I get mad at myself and let it take away from my time and energy.

When I say ugly things,

My children hear it and think that it’s the norm to tear yourself down in the face of setbacks.

The times when I am a bad Mom,

Are the times when I am leading by the wrong example.

But when I am good,

Oh I try so so hard to be good.

And I’ll keep fighting,

For patience,

For calm,

For kindness,

And I’ll hope that those are the times,

That my children will see,

That I can lead by positive example too.