I often have to remind myself that my life is made up of millions of moments and not just the ones that I am living. Sometimes its for a beautiful reason. I feel myself rise above the scene that is unfolding and do my best to soak it in and take a mental snap shot. A little video to keep inside of my mind for those times when I don’t want to soak it in. For the times when I feel like I cannot go anymore.
In the hard times, I remind myself that my life is not just this moment and the rational part of my brain thanks God for not making me a person with the physical ability to smash things. Maybe in my next life I’ll have a better temper and get to live inside of a bigger body.
Rational Diana is glad I’m not big enough to smash things like The Hulk. Childish Diana wishes that she was built like a bulldozer. Mommy Diana reminds Childish Diana that she has to be an example of how to behave for the children. Teenage Diana flips Mommy Diana the bird and sulks off. Mommy Diana plays back a memory of holding her babies and reminds Present Diana that it won’t be much longer before she gets to snuggle them again today. No, I don’t have multiple personalities. We’re fine thank you.
I guess all this is just a reminder to you and to me that we’re going to be okay. Whatever your going through will pass and you will find some sort of balance again. Whether its a job crisis, a death in the family, or something as small as a stubbed toe, just hold on. Take as deep a breath as you can and try to find a snapshot from your day that makes you smile. Press that memory in between the pages of your life and take a look at it when you feel like giving up. Oh, and try not to smash things.