Today

Today I stayed in my nightgown until 1:00pm, but I made the kids breakfast and lunch for the first time in a week.

Today all I wanted to do was lay in a dark, quiet room and pretend I didn’t exist, but I made myself get up take a bath and put on clean clothes.

Today I felt guilty when my mother in law offered to take The Twins and I nearly threw them at her, but I realized that they need some normal right now and I needed some time without being needed.

Today I cried so hard in the parking lot of my favorite library that couldn’t go to the farmer’s market that I had gone there for, but I managed to make it through grocery shopping so we have food to eat.

Today I wanted to leave all the groceries out for my husband to put away and just lay down, but instead I had a really terrible dance party in my kitchen while I unloaded everything.

Today I didn’t feel like eating, but I treated myself to grocery store sushi and it was delicious.

Today I got back in bed at 7:30pm and don’t plan on getting back out of it until tomorrow, but I survived today.

Tomorrow won’t be easy, or the day after that, but I’ll keep moving forward.